He didn't Mean it

He didn't mean it, he never mean to do it
What if the one you love is the one who never appriciates you
You've tried your best to make him proud but you failed anyway
What if the one you wanna live forever with never understands you
However most important things in a relationship are appriciation and understanding well and trust
But there is always something to be thankful for
He is the very last person you think about right before you fall a sleep every night
not somebody else
And you thankful for that

Will it Happen to Me Again?

i hear that word again
and it successfully broke my heart
it's been more than three years since the last time someone said that word to me
The word that used to break my heart into a million pieces
Three years ago someone said that and leave forever
Three years ago my heart was broken
will it happen to me again?

Lebih

Sayang, aku tau betapa kamu takut kehilanganku
Tapi kamu tau? aku lebih
Seribu satu tetes air mataku jatuh
jatuh saat aku membayangkan kamu meninggalkanku
Aku gak sanggup
Aku nggak sanggup duduk di kursi tamu sendirian
Aku nggak sanggup makan samyang tanpa kamu
Kalo kamu bilang kamu takut kehilangan, aku lebih

Queen


About a week ago was my birthday . i got some surprises from my bestie.  i’m old i’m 19 yo already and not a lot of things has changed. i always live with my parents since i was a baby, well even i rarely met my parents back then cz they were busy working to gain a lot of money and yes i bought anything i got anything i wanted easily .i started my day with my maids and ended up with them too. i was like a queen untill i grow up with a queen personality. i can’t cook, i can’t wash the dishes, i can’t do anything that girls at my age usually do.  now i am looking in the mirror and saying ‘am i normal?'. And finally i regret for being a queen.

Someone Like You

Tonight feels so cold
Is it just me or it is cold
Tonight i'm crying
Am i sad or tired
Tonight i miss you
I miss talking to you
Is it just me or you miss me too
I give you a cake as a thankyou
Because my life has been better since 
The day i found you
Absolutely i made this cake with love
Cuz i want you guys to know
That i love you so 
Cuz i know that i cant find someone like you guys
I miss you 


New Year Resolution

When I was a little I used to like cooking. I still remember exactly when I was in kindergarten I started to Cook macaroni with sauce it tasted horrible, it made me got a kind of phobia with macaroni hehe but trust me I used to surprise my mom almost every day when she got back from work when I was a little girl. I did some kind of party planner with food by me and also I decorated the meals and drinks perfectly. It was my favorite childhood memory. As I grew up I become a really lazy girl on entire world maybe I am the laziest person aalive.


That's  why I'm going to break that bad habit this year I wish I can cook well and leave all those lazy habits. To be good at cooking is all i wanted this year.

Btw i went to Mandala krida yesterday with my new friends. They are in a grup called shoot featuredd. A grup of some people who like anything about photography. They were really nice to me. They also really good taking my pictures hehe nice to meet u guys.




Take Me Dek

December, almost everyone's favorite month including me. So many holidays, many fantastic events and don't forget my favorite thing on december is Skaten hehehe. Everyone likes December and i'm pretty sure kids' fav month mostly december because... holidayyyy
well talking about kids hehe my sinematografi friends and i went to an elementary school called SD Singosaren placed in Kotagede Yogyakarta. We ve been there for 2 days for making our new short movie called ' Panca Sila' . The people there was really nice, but kids huft not gonna lie they are annoying really annoying but i kinda like em. i loveee kids.
 Based on my experience there i realized something:
1. Ternyata tren yang hitz waktu aku sd dulu masih tren dikalangan sd sekarang such as WWE tonjok2 an itu loh dulu anak laki laki di kelasku always talking about that. and jokes nya yang mereka bilang dan perbuat itu sama kaya dulu. Sumppah kirain beda jaman beda juga tren nya. Alhasil kalo mereka tebakin aku apa gitu aku bisa jawab karna sama persis kaya tebakanku waktu sd dulu. Ga nyangka sumpah gila kirain udah pada move on from that tren gitu.
2. Anak kecil kalo dilandenin makin menjadi jadi nyebelinnya huft tapi kalo digalakin kasian juga yaa.
3. Ga semua anak kecil nyebelin, ada yang pinter dan ga rewel kaya temen temennya yang kalo disuruh take film pasti lari lari kejar kejaran dulu lah sama crew heeuuuu.
4. Anak kelas 4 sd udah pacaran, ku baru ngerti karna setauku pacaran paling kecil harusnya kelas 6 sd(harusnya?)
5. Anak kecil kalo manggil pacar itu 'bojo' :(
6. Lagi nih gurunya kayanya apal sama semua muridnya gitu, jadi gampang diperhatiin nya.
Daaahhh segitu aja lainnya lupa hehe So tired but happy at the same time, they are so cyuuuttt apalagi yang anak kelas 1 pengen bawa pulang satu deh rasanya hehe
Berada di sd lama lama berasa pengen balik ke sd, pelajarannya cuma 5x20 cuy, gurunya pun asik banget as i mentioned before gurunya itu kayanya apal sama seluruh muridnya jadi enak gitu diperhatiin ga kaya SMA yha gurunya nge absen baca nama aje salah mulu huft








for me it's the most wonderful month of the year