Now i believe i almost can finally close my eyes, ive never felt so free like this moment before. i think this is the most incredible feeling since he said goodbye. Thanks God if this is the best for me i won't regret every single feeling that u gave to me because i know that You know the best.

God , it's so hard for me to believe that i feel nothing now. i keep thinking about how in only a week i can released from that horrible feelings. it feels like only yesterday i was crazy and i couldnt stop talking about it and now i feel nothing it hurts no more. i’ve had enough pain and tears and it’s breaking my heart.  i believe that i’m getting sick already about it.

i might talk about it again but trust me it is not because i’m still thinking about it.

i do love him but i don’t know i’m pretty sure that feeling slowly disappears.

Hari ini tanggal 9 maret, this day a year ago was a bad day based on my journal book. But today wasnt a bad day at all however i d rather have a bad day with you than a good day without you.