Letting Go is Hard but Holding on is Harder

Letting go, even if it hurts, doesnt mean u have to let go of everything u just have to let go of the person and your feeling for him but the memories will always be there whether it’s bad or good. Cz everytime u remember those memories, it'll always put a smile into ur heart and be glad that once in ur life this person made u happy and put colors into ur life even if it’s just for a while.

A year ago i lost someone who can make my life brighter, before i met him i regreted almost everything in my life but then i found him my life has changed i was so happy with my life because he was inside. he has brought me so much happiness and joy that time. i've been here all alone realizing that my life right now is just like before i met him even worse. Nothing much to get up for in the morning.

I know now he has a crush on someone ,everybody asks me 'who is she?do u know her? r u jealous?' well ofc i am jealous but who am i to? u know ilove u so i want u to be happy. i promise u i don't wnt u back i promise u i will let yoou go with someone better, i wont be mad at u if ure dating someone who is better than me, someone who can make u happy, that can make u feel comfortable, that can put a smile on ur face. i promise u i'll be happy if ur happy with someone you love. i promise u i won't show u how much i'll get jealous if you're with her cz ilove u.

Do you remember the first day that we talked? on friday we were talking and watching movies together at ur house with my friend. on Sunday u asked me to come to your house and we talked alot u told me everything about you, about ur family and everything, you showed me your old pics. we talked alot untill dark then i got home. i wish u knew that everytime u said goodbye (even were gonna meet again the next day) i feel sad. but then after that we were getting closer and i meant the world to u and u meant everything to me. yes i still remember everything because when i met you i always write a story about us on my journal book soon when i get home and i still have it till now. sometimes whan i miss u i re read everything from the 1st page and i'll start crying and the book will get wet.

When people ask me "do you still like him?" i don't know there's just something i cant forget about him.