Take Me Dek

December, almost everyone's favorite month including me. So many holidays, many fantastic events and don't forget my favorite thing on december is Skaten hehehe. Everyone likes December and i'm pretty sure kids' fav month mostly december because... holidayyyy
well talking about kids hehe my sinematografi friends and i went to an elementary school called SD Singosaren placed in Kotagede Yogyakarta. We ve been there for 2 days for making our new short movie called ' Panca Sila' . The people there was really nice, but kids huft not gonna lie they are annoying really annoying but i kinda like em. i loveee kids.
 Based on my experience there i realized something:
1. Ternyata tren yang hitz waktu aku sd dulu masih tren dikalangan sd sekarang such as WWE tonjok2 an itu loh dulu anak laki laki di kelasku always talking about that. and jokes nya yang mereka bilang dan perbuat itu sama kaya dulu. Sumppah kirain beda jaman beda juga tren nya. Alhasil kalo mereka tebakin aku apa gitu aku bisa jawab karna sama persis kaya tebakanku waktu sd dulu. Ga nyangka sumpah gila kirain udah pada move on from that tren gitu.
2. Anak kecil kalo dilandenin makin menjadi jadi nyebelinnya huft tapi kalo digalakin kasian juga yaa.
3. Ga semua anak kecil nyebelin, ada yang pinter dan ga rewel kaya temen temennya yang kalo disuruh take film pasti lari lari kejar kejaran dulu lah sama crew heeuuuu.
4. Anak kelas 4 sd udah pacaran, ku baru ngerti karna setauku pacaran paling kecil harusnya kelas 6 sd(harusnya?)
5. Anak kecil kalo manggil pacar itu 'bojo' :(
6. Lagi nih gurunya kayanya apal sama semua muridnya gitu, jadi gampang diperhatiin nya.
Daaahhh segitu aja lainnya lupa hehe So tired but happy at the same time, they are so cyuuuttt apalagi yang anak kelas 1 pengen bawa pulang satu deh rasanya hehe
Berada di sd lama lama berasa pengen balik ke sd, pelajarannya cuma 5x20 cuy, gurunya pun asik banget as i mentioned before gurunya itu kayanya apal sama seluruh muridnya jadi enak gitu diperhatiin ga kaya SMA yha gurunya nge absen baca nama aje salah mulu huft








for me it's the most wonderful month of the year

Resting My Heart

Being single doesn't mean that we never get hurt. i do, i get hurt all the time, by the person i care about, i care about him doesnt mean i like him. he can be from my past or nah. but yes my heart is empty more than 2 years and now it s still empty. i sometimes realize that i like someone but i know that person still never fits in my heart. well iknow maybe it means that i'm still not ready for the new love.  i used to think that i am not good enough for anyone but now i realized that no one is good enough for me yet. and im still strong enough to handle things all by myself so that's why im still single hehe.



Btw i love this green tea cake so muchhhhh it tastes like heaven hehehe



Ala Ala

This pictures were taken 2 days ago. All of my classmate and i went to Go Rich Cafe to have a photoshoot for our year book or as known as bts. Well i knew that our yearbook photographer will only take picts for bts so i brought my very own photographer hehehe and my photographer which is my school mate we always have the same opinion about photography so here are our 'foto ala ala'





btw my class' yearbook theme is fashion revolution, cute huh?



Even Longer

I suddenly remember a Winnie the Pooh movie, i used to watch that movie a lot when i was a kid. I looveee how pooh and piglet love each other ,care and i love every single quotes there. A friend is someone who helps u up when u re down and if they can’t, they will lay down beside u and listen.

Well talking about friendship, i met 3 friends in high school 3 years ago. Not just friends actually they are a lil bit more special than the other friends in my highschool. People call it 'best friends' but i call it 'best bitches' wohooo. love them so much.

They are not perfect friends that everyone wants to have but they are honest. Maybe they are not the kindest but they’ve changed me better. I’ve learned a lot from them, patience and simplicity.


I used to be a lil bit arrogant but they told me and showed me how to be a better person. i used to be angry all the time but well yeah i’m still grumpy now haha but they ‘ve changed me to be a better person anyway. Not gonna lie they are all suck sometimes but they still give me food. However my senior high school won’t be perfect without them. In less than a year we will be apart guys so lets still be friends. till we're old guys, even longer.




bukan promosi ataupon endors ya sist gan

Date Myself

That feeling when u re driving alone, eat alone, watch a movie even buy things alone. I can say that doing something on my own is one of my fav thing to do. Sometimes i confused why most people are so reluctant to do fun things on their own. It's fun lho. This doesnt mean i dont like being with my friends, or i have no friends, yes i have, ive friends to see a movie with, eat in a new rastaurant or just hangout. but well sometimes i wud be happier going out n doing something on my own. And i find out it s not bad at all hehehehe i thought going to a coffee shop on my own sounds fun. it was true guys trueee

 



"i would be happier going out and doing something on my own"

Only Yesterday

Now i believe i almost can finally close my eyes, ive never felt so free like this moment before. i think this is the most incredible feeling since he said goodbye. Thanks God if this is the best for me i won't regret every single feeling that u gave to me because i know that You know the best.
God , it's so hard for me to believe that i feel nothing now. i keep thinking about how in only a week i can released from that horrible feelings. it feels like only yesterday i was crazy and i couldnt stop talking about it and now i feel nothing it hurts no more. i’ve had enough pain and tears and it’s breaking my heart.  i believe that i’m getting sick already about it.
i might talk about it again but trust me it is not because i’m still thinking about it.
i do love him but i don’t know i’m pretty sure that feeling slowly disappears.





Main

Happiness is meeting with old friends after a long time and feeling that nothing has changed.

 March 10



This day a year ago..


Hari ini tanggal 9 maret, this day a year ago was a bad day based on my journal book. But today wasnt a bad day at all however i d rather have a bad day with you than a good day without you.


Trimakasih Karna...

Bersama kamu aku nggak takut gelap
Denganmu aku berani menelusuri perairan,
melewati gurun ataupun 
berjalan di tanah gersang tanpa pakai alas kaki

Melewati hari hari bersama kamu itu yang aku mau
Aku belajar dan mencoba banyak hal karna kamu
Aku nggak akan pernah bilang aku menyesal kamu pernah ada di kehidupanku, mengisi tiap hariku 
karna bersamamu aku jadi mengerti banyak hal baru, 
dari hal terkecil yang nggak penting 
sampai hal hal yang sebenernya aku ga perlu tau

Terimakasih karna pernah ada di kehidupanku, 
menyemangati pagiku, menghapus kesalku, 
terimakasih karna pernah menjadi satu satunya orang yang membuatku melakukan apapun yang tidak ingin aku lakukan. 
Trimakasih karna pernah mencintaiku seperti kamu mencintai dirimu sendiri
Trimakasih



Letting Go is Hard but Holding on is Harder

Letting go, even if it hurts, doesnt mean u have to let go of everything u just have to let go of the person and your feeling for him but the memories will always be there whether it’s bad or good. Cz everytime u remember those memories, it'll always put a smile into ur heart and be glad that once in ur life this person made u happy and put colors into ur life even if it’s just for a while.

A year ago i lost someone who can make my life brighter, before i met him i regreted almost everything in my life but then i found him my life has changed i was so happy with my life because he was inside. he has brought me so much happiness and joy that time. i've been here all alone realizing that my life right now is just like before i met him even worse. Nothing much to get up for in the morning.

I know now he has a crush on someone ,everybody asks me 'who is she?do u know her? r u jealous?' well ofc i am jealous but who am i to? u know ilove u so i want u to be happy. i promise u i don't wnt u back i promise u i will let yoou go with someone better, i wont be mad at u if ure dating someone who is better than me, someone who can make u happy, that can make u feel comfortable, that can put a smile on ur face. i promise u i'll be happy if ur happy with someone you love. i promise u i won't show u how much i'll get jealous if you're with her cz ilove u.

Do you remember the first day that we talked? on friday we were talking and watching movies together at ur house with my friend. on Sunday u asked me to come to your house and we talked alot u told me everything about you, about ur family and everything, you showed me your old pics. we talked alot untill dark then i got home. i wish u knew that everytime u said goodbye (even were gonna meet again the next day) i feel sad. but then after that we were getting closer and i meant the world to u and u meant everything to me. yes i still remember everything because when i met you i always write a story about us on my journal book soon when i get home and i still have it till now. sometimes whan i miss u i re read everything from the 1st page and i'll start crying and the book will get wet.

When people ask me "do you still like him?" i don't know there's just something i cant forget about him.